Mixed feelings
Part of me wants to cry, but there is a bigger part of me that is smiling.
I recieved an e-mail from "H" today, and she said Keaton is 10 lbs, 22 inches long! So funny, seeing as how he was born on 10-22 lol
She told me everything they are doing for Christmas, and asked what we were doing. That was awesome. I don tknow, i guess i didnt really expect to hear from the till after the Holidays, but, it was nice to actually get to know eveything he was going to be doing!
I have no many mixed feelings this year; Kathleen and Alex will be here, but Keaton wont be. Part of me says, thats ok, he will be with his family. But another part of me hates that i will miss his first Christmas. even though he is too young to know what is going on, its still a first, you know? I know i will get pictures, and they will tell me all about it, but i wont be there, and that kind of sucks.
But, this is the path i chose as my friend "T" told me. She has been an aweosme support, and she is right. I chose this, i made the decision. And it was the best one i could make for all of us. But, he will always be my birth-son, and that will always be true. But, i am not his parent anymore, and i have to trust that "R" and "H" will do all the right things, and i knwo they will, thats why i chose them.
anyways, before i start balling, and spend the rest of my evening crying my eyes out, i better go!
Happy Holidays to everyone who is reading this, just in case im not back before Christmas! Eventhough, im sure i will be, lol
2006-12-21 17:03:48 GMT
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