11-02-06 Running into the arms of love

11-02-06 Running into the arms of love
today, i couldn't take it anymore. I keep telling people how, i am fine some days, and others i cry. Truth is, i cry every day. There isn't a day that goes by that i don't cry, and scream into my pillow. Today, i just couldn't take it anymore. I had to run away.So, i went to the only place i knew, my Aunts. I walked into the house, and i hugged her, and cried. I didn't want to let go, i could feel myself wanting to collapse, wanting to loose it all. I wanted to lay down, and bury myself alive in a blanket, and just let it out for hours, and fall asleep.sometimes, i feel like its the only thing to do anymore. I cry... that's my thing. But i hide it, because, well... i don't know what else to do. I've been unhappy so much in life, that people got sick of hearing about it. Now, i don't want to bother them with it. So, i go to my room, or cry in the shower, or pretend I'm OK. But I'm not OK, and even though they know that, most people would rather pretend that i am OK. I know its hard for others, and I'm not asking for everyone to focus on me, and tell me its OK.I'm not stupid, i KNOW its not OK. I KNOW I'm going to hurt for a long time, and i KNOW I'm going to cry for a long time. But tell me you understand, tell me you miss him too, tell me I'm not the only one who wants to hold him again. And don't hide it from me. I NEED to know how you feel! I NEED to know you feel the same way i do.Well... I guess in the end, i cant make them share their feelings, just as much as they cant make me stop hurting.
2006-11-03 04:12:38 GMT