11-08-2006 Its been a few days

Its been a few days....
I spent the last few days doing other things. Sunday i went down to visit my son and Nate, and i ended up staying over night. I guess in a way, i just wanted to, get away.I havent opened Keatons life book since saturday, but i look at his picture every day. funny thing is, for the last few days, i havent hurt. I havent cried since monday, and, im ok with that. I still have his blanket on my head bord, and i still have his picture on my TV in my bedroom. But, i think about him every day, and dont cry. So, i guess in a way, thats a good thing. Right?Next week i have my second adoption meeting at a church here in Shaker. the lady from the Adoption Network said its a lot bigger! Good thing, cuz there was only one other lady at my first meeting, lol.Anyways, i guess thats it for now, I really try not to talk about it much, because then it hurts more. I knwo i wont forget him, but sometimes, if i dont think about him, or think i forgot to think about him for a few hours, i feel guilty.
2006-11-08 18:15:57 GMT