Finally... 12-04-06

Finally...
Well, Im finally done! I been writing this thing for so long. Well, it seems that way, but actually, its only been a little over a week. Maybe two weeks at the most, lol.Another birth mom gave me the Idea(so, if your reading this, thanks B). But, she said when her son was born, she wrote, about anything and everything. She even even sat down and wrote a small book on the journey to his birth. And i thought, thats perfect! Im always making little notes to him in the letters i write, saying "Your Mommy did ____, and it was so funny!" or "during the untra sound, your Momma held me while I cried..."So, now, he will know all those things. And hopefully knowing the whole story, will help him understand better. But, after so many years, im sure he will understand just fine. So, in case there is ever a time, place, or reason, that I have to be absent from his life, I know R&H will share it with him when he is old enough to understand. How long do I have to wait for him to read it? Who knows, only they do. they are his parents, and they will know him best. But, i do hope they read it as well. It will be alittle repetitive, since we lived those months together. But, i really do want them to know.......And another thing. Someone asked me why I call his parents R&H, or "R" and ""H". I dunno, the thing is, i guess my relationship has been so great with them, and they have been there for everything. I just cant see myself calling them his adoptive parents, or his aParents anymore. He has two parents, "R" & "H", im his birth mother, not a parent. These are two toally different things. So, although I am his birth mother, they are his parents. In my heart, and in life.... papers or not, no adoption about it... they are just that... His Parents.
2006-12-04 15:24:58 GMT