10-31-06

Well, i spent most of my time today (so far) sleeping!
I keep printing things out for the life book, but im trying not to open it so much. I think seeing the pictures is making me miss him even more.
I know its going to happen; you can give a child away, and not him them! But, my b/f thinks that the more i look at the book, the more i hurt. So, im just trying not to look at it so much.
Im going to try NOT to even open it at all today, lol. Yea, that sounds kind of werird, but, its become my addiction. I cant stop looking at it. And i have apicture fram with his picture in it ontop of the TV in my room, and i look at it every day.
Sometimes i wonder if i gave him away for all the right reasons, or if there was something i missed. If there was some way i could have done it.
Well, the only thing left to do now is to get used to it. I'll never get over it, but i will have to understand that this is the choice i made, and i cant change it now.
I have a lot of songs i keep listening to, and thinking of him. So, im going to be posting some blogs that, i hope, will touch some of you, like the lyrics have touched me.
I may not get them up right away, but i will get them up as soon as I can.
2006-10-31 17:13:29 GMT